Tonight as I sit here after midnight in the quiet of our house I reflect on the wonderful day at church hearing the Talley Trio sing and hear my Father preach and I say in my heart "I am so blessed."
I have a wonderful husband who is fast asleep as he is tired from the long list of "honey-do's" all weekend. He has helped me decorate the office by hanging curtains, cutting rods, hanging pictures, making a huge 8 foot toybox for the gameroom and so many other things. He never complains that I stay up way after midnight to decorate or get some alone time or go for midnight outings to Wal-Mart. He always gives me more than what I ask for and never holds it over my head. He never compains about my passion for decorating and spending money to make things look just right. He is my ROCK and I know when I lay my head down every night next to him that I am safe and secure. Most of all I KNOW he love ME!!
I am thankful for my charming little, not so little anymore, boy that loves to read and play with my hair. He keeps me laughing all the time with his funny wise cracks. He is always so polite and well mannered. He always asks that I sing him Hush Little Baby when I tuck him into bed. He lets me play with his ears when they are cold! He is the best dose of sunshine to a horrible day. He is so appreciative and thankful when you give him something. He makes straight A's in school. He is very sensitive to other children or people who are less fortunate or who have suffered some loss. With the change of season he always asks to go to Hobbly Lobby to pick out flowers for Emma's grave. I am thankful he loves her even though he has never met her. He is seeking God for salvation in his life right now and I know it will not be long before he accepts the most important gift into his life. He wants to be a bull rider because he was named after Lane Frost!!
I thankful for my miracle baby that is happy and healthy and fast asleep because thousands of people prayed for her long before we ever met her. She is such a priss pot! She is exactly what I said I didn't want in terms of having a girl because she is so dramatic. Now I cannot imagine having a girl any other way! When I look at her I see myself. I love how she is so affectionate and friendly. I love that she will stare Scott down and give him a run for his money, even though she is just barely over 20 pounds soak and wet! I love to see the excitement on her face when she watches Yo Gabba Gabba. I love how as soon as she wakes up in the morning she wants to go bye bye. I have trained her well because we are some shopping gals! I like how every time we go to Target she asks for "Pawcorn"! I like that she has always been such a good sleeper post-reflux. I enjoy that she always says "It's a good day" because God has a purpose for her and every day for Bella is a Good Day!
Lastly, I am thankful for Emma. I cannot do this post without mentioning how blessed I am to be a mother of a child who is with the King! I am thankful because she will never cry, will never be exposed to death only life, will never know disappointment, and most importantly will never be exposed to sin on earth. I have always loved babies since I was a little girl, even cute lil' puppies, but would always tell my Mom that I wanted to have a baby but I didn't want it to grow up because I wanted it to stay little forever. Now when I get to heaven, I will rejoice in the fact that I will have Emma to hold and she will by my baby FOREVER! Little did I know all those years ago as a child God would give me what I always wished for. I am also thankful that as tiny as she was she changed my life and taught me more than anyone else has ever taught me. Part of the reason why I write this very post tonight is because of her. See I have been in the valley of the shadow of death and I know what that's like and I know what loss is and what it feels like for your heart to literally hurt because you are so saddened. It is because of this loss I am more thankful for my life and my family and what God has blessed me with because in a split second our lives were changed forever on April 27, 2007. Today I can say that it was forever changed for the good, but I can only say that through the grace of God and the strength that He gives me each and every day to live trusting only in Him.
Be thankful for what you have because there is always someone else who is a lot worse off than you are. Be thankful because God has given you breath of life and a free gift that cost him everything so that you could have eternal life. This Thanksgiving may you be most thankful for His life and his sacrifice for your sins. I know I am.




